It
was the summer. I was out of college for a while and working as a clerk for a
small magazine, mostly selling ads and features and proof reading. I was there
to act as a buffer between the world and the boss's hangover, which was
generally bad. Sometimes I'd be sick from drinking too, but I normally saved it
for the weekend, where as my boss could call on a Tuesday to let me know he was
sick and would not be coming to work today.
But this story, it isn’t about my
boss. I met this dark haired girl there, Sally-Francis, and God o God she was a
better girl than any other girl I knew. The office was in Ranelagh and there
were dozens of beautiful women that you could see on one walk to the shop, all
of them breasts and asses under the sun that moved a rhythm they moved. But
Sally, she could beat off the lot of them. When I met her, after she replaced the
last girl, who had complained of sexual harassment, I took her out for a drink.
We acted like friends and we were friends, because she had a boyfriend
that she was trying not to despise. She had no breasts, and normally I like
breasts, but with Sal I could just talk and drink and look at the other women,
just as she would look at the other men. I felt drunk after three beers when I
drank with her.
Once, when me and some guys were
drinking together after work she arrived with her sister, and as soon as they
arrived her sister ran off to talk to a friend of mine, Chris. It turned out
that the previous night they had fucked each other and neither had known that
they would see each other that day. It was enough for them. So far as I know,
they are still together. But before the two of them arrived I had been drinking
heavily - rum, tequila, beer after beer after beer, more rum! - and by the time
Sal came to speak to me I was drunk enough to try and make romantic. I said
some things I don’t remember. Hell, I thought I was being romantic, I thought I
was a poet, but when I woke up the next morning she wasn’t there, and I had a
hangover and a dead face.
Sally quit the job soon after and I didn’t
see her for months. I ate my lunch alone and watched traffic. The next time I
saw her it was around December. I had just finished with this girl called
Morag. I was drinking in this bar called McGuire’s, like I usually did after
work, and Sally just sort of sat down next to me. I was still pretty sober and
she hadn’t had a drink all day.
“Where've you been?”
“Here.”
“You never rang me.”
“Why would I? I figured if I left
it, it would be less embarrassing.”
She looked at me over a glass. She
had a thing, like a wart, growing on one of her eye lids and a way of looking
at you that let hair fall over it. It made her look shy and beautiful and like
no other woman all at once.
“I wasn’t embarrassed.”
I put my arm around her a little. “Well
then I'm sorry I never rang you.”
I kissed her, and it was odd. She
had a small mouth that tasted of beer, and her lipstick stuck to my mouth a
little. I pulled away from her and ordered another drink. She had one too. I got
two more rounds into me, and she told me she had been putting off going home
because her housemate had a boy over.
“She said they'd be in
bed by ten. I’ve been watching the clock, it’s almost half past.”
“Let’s go,” I said. She looked at me
like she was surprised. When we had worked together I had never been direct
like that, I had been shy, sort of quiet. But I no longer cared very much for
shyness. I just wanted to have her.
“Ok,” she said.
We walked together to her house. I
was a little drunk from the beer, but most of the drunk came from having a
woman next to me that would make a man care. Here was a woman who would give
you a better drunk than whiskey, and her arm was on my waist! I had grown two
feet in minutes. Come on you chicken shit mother fuckers, bring it on, I'll
bury the lot of you! Let's me and her show you something that will burn the
stars! We walked slowly enough, and we didn’t really say much. It was
comfortable, even though the excitement was enough to power a steam train.
When we got in to her house the room
mate was nowhere. I could hear noises upstairs though, and it got me looking
more at Sal. I was hard. She was taking me upstairs. We passed the roommates
door and it was ajar. Her roommate was in there, making those noises, with some
guy beneath her, in the warmth of her. I looked at her back. Short honey hair.
A tan. Slowly moving on him. He made no noises. All the noises were her. I felt
myself get harder and grabbed Sal close, kissing her face. Oh God God God I was
in it good.
She brought me to her room, brought
me to her bed. I fell on her, kissed her hard, but that was as far as it went.
The most beautiful women in the world have a habit of letting me fall for them
and then revealing their issues about sex. I don’t know if I attract them or if
they attract me. She had a bottle of whiskey and we sat together for a while
drinking it. I was hard the entire time and she never let herself look down. We
kissed a little more, but it wasn’t as good as in the bar. She wouldn’t open her
mouth properly and wouldn’t let me touch her legs. Probably she was interfered
with when she was younger. I held her, touched her tits, but that was it.
In the morning the barrier was
broken, so I was able to get the train home for free. That was alright.
D.
S. Maolalai studies English at Trinity College. He has been trying to
be a writer for years, with little success until very recently. He
currently lives in Dublin, but plans to leave as soon as possible. His
poetry has previously appeared on strangebounce.com and he has some short pieces forthcoming on a few other sites, but hasn't bothered to make a website of his own.
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